An Anxiety Update



The last time I wrote about anxiety I was in school.. that was over 3 years ago, and boy if I thought I had it bad then, well lets just say shit hit the fan.
I've always been an anxious person like I will work myself up and worry myself sick thats always been a part of my personality but even that really doesn't prepare anyone for a panic attack. They are awful.
I've going through a very stressful phase in my life recently, emotionally, professionally you name it, it has been a taxing time and on top of that I lost the one thing/person that calms me down when I start feeling anxious, so as you can tell, its all been a bit wild.

As much as I'd love to tell you I've managed to overcome my anxiety and keep it at bay, I can't, but I can tell you I'm dealing with it on a daily basis and it is slowly starting to get back under control.
Recently anything feels like it sends me into anxious spiral and it will literally end up with me panicking to the point where I start getting chest pains and I can't breathe! What am I like hey!!
One thing I don't understand is how people still seem to disregard mental health in this day and age or feel like mental health problems are only a minority of grouped feelings. 
Legit it drives me up the wall. Everyone and I mean EVERYONE can experience mental health issues in their own way. It does NOT, ever, make that persons struggle less 'real' or 'fake'. Delete yourself from my life if you hold that opinion please. 
I'm at the moment surrounded by a larger scale of people who don't understand mental health compared to those who do and honestly its so draining and has such a negative effect. I didn't make goals for 2017 but I've made a mental, uh oh see what I accidentally did there, note to take in my surroundings and people into consideration more. Its the little things like educating yourself on mental health before you speak down on it, or even something simpler than that, if you don't have anything nice to say, shut your fucking mouth. 
One of my coping mechanisms recently has been acceptance and preparation. Obviously you cant prepare for a panic attack like oh if I do this or this I can avoid it, well I personally cant, but I've learned to sort of cushion the blow and make the ordeal slightly more manageable for myself. 
I have accepted that I have seriously suckish personal anxiety, and I'm okay with that, theres nothing 'wrong' with me. I'm not 'special' and I certainly do not need to tiptoe around people because I'm scared my mental health needs will look bad or upset someone. 
IF you or a certain situation is making feel uneasy, or I simply do not want to be a part of something, I will let you know I'm feeling anxious, and if push comes to shove I will extract myself from the situation completely if I have to.
Recently I was having a forced conversation with someone who has no longer any place or value in my life and I straight up went "this is giving me anxiety, I can not have this conversation" and you know what thats okay, put YOURSELF first, its always acceptable to put your mental health first. Whats not acceptable was the reply I got, "what doesnt give you anxiety" UM. I can not reiterate enough if you don't understand something, keep quiet on it. Rest assured that person, who by the way is funnily enough responsible for giving me a lot of panic attacks, is no longer a valid individual in my life. Bitch bye.
Do any of you have anxiety? If so how do you personally deal with it? Asking for myself and all who may sometimes need a helping hand!
Until next time,
Aliyah x

12 comments

  1. I have anxiety too. It gets really bad especially at work. So now, I decided to leave the job and find something else that won't put my mental health at risk. I have yet to try the trick you shared, about telling that the conversation is giving me anxiety, but just telling people I have anxiety already makes me anxious haha.

    Skinnydecxflatte.blogspot.com xo

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  2. I have anxiety well did its very compressed now. I went to the doctors to get help and it really did help. Dont worry if you have dips. Its fine. You will get there in the end :)

    Vanessa xxx

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  3. I'm so glad that I never have anxiety because I saw my friends got anxiety attack and it scares the hell out of me. At that moment I don't even know what to do or how to calm her down. Its great to learn something new everyday especially on how other people deal with it. Thank you for sharing your stories ;)

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  4. Thanks for sharing your story. I've never had anxiety myself, but I know how awful it can be.

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  5. Thank you for sharing your story

    Steph xx

    Steph's World | Lifestyle Blog | www.stephsworld.com

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  6. I have anxiety and I love reading others stories because sometimes I think I'm the only who knows how I feel and then I realise there are others out there that feel the same

    Tasha x

    http://itsatashathing.blogspot.co.uk/2017/01/itsatashathing-labour-story.html?m=1

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  7. Thankyou for sharing! I know so many people who suffer with anxiety even though I personally don't so hopefully I'll be able to share these tips with them x

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  8. Thanks for sharing this. One of my dear friends struggles with anxiety and I just always do my best to be there for them as needed, even if it's just sending silly snapchat pictures or links to funny videos.

    Single Vegas Girl
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  9. You are the biggest hypocrite I have ever come across in my life. You talk about having anxiety and being a good person but all you do is tweet about girls slagging them off. You ain't shit you honestly are the ugliest nastiest cunt

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  11. I've literally had anxiety all my life, even when I was 5 years old I used to get myself so anxious for my birthdays/big events that I'd literally make myself sick, hahahaha. Spent what were supposed to be the best nights of the year in bed with a sick bowl. It's strange to think really because I am a super confident person in a new crowd and try my hardest not to let it get the better of me anymore, but it is an uphill battle that you need to keep fighting to stay strong. Over the years the effects I get from my anxiety have changed, when I reached teens I developed the WORST shakes whenever I'm about to do something that incorporates change or if I'm in one of those reeeally uncomfortable times. Different coping mechanisms work for different people though. The best thing I've found personally is to find similarities from the situation I'm in to ones experienced previously, even if they are vastly different, but that's just me hey!

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  12. My mom actually used to get it really bad like quite often and now she still does get it but not as bad the reason is she doesn't place herself in situation or places she doesn't want to be in like a crowded home for example and she removed the negetive people in her life. When she does have a panic attack I tend to speak to her to let her know I'm right here and if she requires something I will address it then move on to asking her about her day which really helps tbh I don't actually know what else helps - I just try to help

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